Feels Like Home

I stumbled across this tonight.  It's my wedding vows:

Mary Oliver once asked "What is it you plan to do with your one wild and precious life?"  I've thought long and hard about this question and I've finally found the perfect answer- "who knows?!"  And I have decided that it's okay that the answer is unknown.  Because today I'm vowing to follow you into the unknown.  I vow to help you love life, and all of its mysteries and adventures.  I vow to prove that love exists even when you're sure it doesn't.  I vow to hold your hand and your heart as tightly as I can, even when you don't want me to.  I vow to stand by you, regardless of any reservations I may have.  I vow to keep you strong, through  the strength you've given me.  And, Jordan, I vow to remind you that you are truly loved for who you are...every day, for the rest of your life.  I love you.

I love my wife.  I truly do.  Most of the time people see us joking around and having a good time, but they never see the serious side of our relationship.  People wonder why we're together.  Well, we're smitten by one another.  We poke fun and we joke around, but she is the only person I trust with my heart.  I intend to spend the rest of my life with her...she is my perfect partner.  I love her so incredibly much.

Anyway, on to our wedding day...

I walked down the aisle to Chantal Kreviazuk's "Feels Like Home."  It was the perfect song for Jordan and myself, and our relationship as a whole.  Everything about that song is everything that I feel for Jordan and there's no other song I would have rather had played on my wedding day.  It was also a complete accident.  I had my playlist set out and all together and directions typed up for my DJ.  The family was supposed to walk in to Ron Pope's Perfect For Me.  Then my bridesmaids and groomsmen were supposed to walk in to Feels Like Home.  I was supposed to walk in to a traditional wedding song, Cannon in D.  However, somehow the family was escorted more quickly than planned and the bridesmaids and groomsmen shuffled in to the same Ron Pope song.  Feels like Home was next in the queue and the DJ didn't catch it before it was too late.  So, I walked.  I'm so glad I did!  Looking back on it, there's no way I would've chosen any other song to meet my wife at  the altar.

Embracing mistakes can be hard to do.  I could have gotten really upset about the situation and let it ruin my wedding day.  But I had put so much time, energy, and money into that day, that there wasn't much you could do to bring me down.  Sometimes, when things don't go as planned, they turn out better.  Sometimes, they don't.  The point is to not dwell on the times when mistakes bring about negative outcomes.  We all make mistakes and we all encounter people that make mistakes...it's inevitable.  Live your life despite your mistakes not in spite of them.